There are things that i need, but i can't get it

I need a simple text message asking me how am i doing.
Why am i always the one taking initiative?

Maybe i'm being unreasonable but fuck it.

I'm tired of needing what most humans need.
I wish i can abandon the need for love and the need for concern since i don't seem to get any.

Maybe not needing all this shit will make me less human. but fuck it. I rather not be human.
let me just close my eyes. let the heart stop beating from that moment.
let the breathing become slow
let the blood become stale
let the body become cold
let me sleep eternally in a bed of thorny roses

is what i would like to say.

but its way too emo. so just FML

yes. FUCK IT.