Its a simple thing, but still, it was a pretty hard issue for me to bring up. :P

I'm happy with myself. ^_^

Ohhhh... Laogong said he is going to sponsor me an iphone for my bday! XD

I'm thinking that being able to depend on another person other than yourself is a blessing. Its not a necessity but a bonus to me :)

It was hard for me to try depending on somebody else(i'm not talking about housework and stuff) because of the way i grew up. It was hard for me to trust someone enough for me to lean on. I need to trust that I wouldn't fall due to that person leaving or abandoning me.

Sometimes, it feels unreal to me because it seems like i don't need a shoulder to lean on to most people who knows me and I've never really felt like I could depend on someone, even my own family.

For the first 22 years of my life, I've only felt like I could depend on my nanny and my dog. During that 22 years, the only time i can truly express myself will be time I spent with them.

However, it seems like, there's a new member to this team! :D I'll be spending the rest of my life with this person, aka laogong. ^__________^

I'm glad that I didn't die when I tried to kill myself. I'm glad that my love for my dog woke me up from that notion. I'm glad that I'm still living, I'm glad that I have my best friend who is always supporting me, I'm glad that I met friends like Nikol and Alexis who have brought me great joy and lend me a helping hand when i was down. The thing that makes me happy about living the most is him. :)

I'm glad that I'm still living because if I didn't stop myself that time, I might not even have the chance to become good friends with him and not to mention getting together with him.

So.. Thanks to my darling dog!I love my cute lil baby aka my dog. You'll always be my baby even though you are like 70 years old in human years. xD